Blegh

[dragonimp]

Writing has ... not been happening, the last several days. Work has been crazy busy with the summer reading game starting, but I was off Sunday and today and just .. haven't been able to write. I got a little done on Sunday, but nowhere near what I wanted. It's not that I don't know what's going to happen, the plot actually resolved itself fairly well Sunday, but when I sit down to write everything that tries to come out is flat and clunky. Like I've regressed back to high school or something.

I read over some of my fics and parts of them read like a tennis shoe in the dryer. And I think, why didn't anyone tell me this was awkward? Then I remember that most people are afraid to leave negative comments. And I start thinking that everyone's just being nice and is too polite (or scared) to tell me it sucks. And, oh yeah, did I mention I've kinda been in one of my "the internet fucking SUCKS" moods lately?

Really, though, I think I've been worn out from work and either allergies or a mild cold/flu (probably allergies), which hasn't been the best for my mood OR any sort of thinking.

I did get a tiny bit of painting done today, so it wasn't all wasted. I really should wash my watercolor palette, though, it's running out of clean places to mix colors. And now my wrist hurts.

Comments

[nochick-fics.livejournal.com]

Sometimes you just need a break, you know? Nothing wrong with that. Better than wasting your time writing something that you will look back upon and hate (been there done that).

I don't think your writing sucks at all, personally. I realize I'm probably the minority when it comes to my lackadaisical attitude towards writing fanfiction; I like to throw it out there and see if it sticks, and it's fun to do so. And I'm usually not one for giving concrit, solicited or otherwise, because I just like to see people enjoy what they post and don't want to discourage that, even if it's not my particular cup of tea. Unless a story just blatantly ass-rapes good grammar and punctuation (and character personalities), I can overlook a lot.

Do you have a beta? I thought you did at some point but hadn't heard from them? Not that I think you need one, but for your own peace of mind...

[dragonimp.livejournal.com]

The irony is, I want to write. I've had rough times where I've felt obligated but actually wanted to be working on something else, but this isn't really that. This part just .. isn't coming well. Being tired probably has a lot to do with it.

Yeah, I don't really give concrits very often for much the same reasons, which, as I stated in a recent post, is a bit hypocritical of me. But fear of author reaction is a big reason, too c_c;. I don't really expect crits, I'm just aware that flaws aren't likely to be pointed out.

Rainjoy offered to beta the charity fic for me, but otherwise, I appear to be functionally betaless. Seaweed_fma had offered, but I tried contacting her a couple times and haven't heard back.